Update la foot

my foot has its bandage removed and is now green and blue yuk!!!!! and a massive scab which still hasnt healed not the most attractive thing to look and makes me feel rather sick thinking about it!!

my poorly foot

what a day friday turned into!!

could i be more in the wars!!went to hannah shearns house for her birthday and was leaving with Joe and i slipped and bent my foot back and landed on it sort of like the splits was not nice, hurt like .... anyway joe had to carry me to the car and clean the cut up with my make up remover wipes as that was all i had. spent all day saturday in my bed with ice on it taking lots of drugs. went to church on sunday and dr Paula said i should go to A&E so off me and joe went bumped into the lovely jess (whos house it was at!)who managed to bump us up the queue so instead of us being stuck there for 4 hours it was only 1. Had an xray done which then a boy came in too hopping after his xray saying oh thats cant be my foot its really big and long which then i got up and hopped over to my xray leaving an embarrased little boy!Dr decided to clean the cut which was agony but she thinks there might be a hairline fracture not sure so got to go back on tues until then no walking or driving so im stuck on my bed fun.

(not the clearest of pics)

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Just got back from the doctors oh so not very helpful in the slightest, my rib has been hurting me on off for the last 6 months and originally she said get an xray now she wants to take my blood and do tests on it, so not up for that as last time i gave a blood test i ended up fainting then had to get checked out again after that as it took ages for my blood pressure to get to the right level!!!

had a really bad migraine all yesterday and this morning feeling slightly better just feel like i have wasted a couple of days though.

just going to wrap up josephs xmas presents so he cant see them any more as they are hiding in my den.

(as i am typing my rib is hurting me so im going to stop goodbye!)

Brokeness

Brokeness

is it possible to become broken, broken to the core so broken that we cant move and are lying down unable to move. Do people understand the brokeness that we constantly asked to be...do we seek to be broken to become an offering... how far do we want to go where is it we stop...

He doesnt want us to stop, he wants us on the floor unable to move as he is upon us, he wants us consumed by his presence, to be trapped by him that we can never think about ourselves and what it is we want. THEN we will see his love, his glory, his plans for us, see his fruit multiply.

Are you ready for that??? i know that im not but i want to be there i want to be on the floor unable to move as he is consuming me to the very core that my being is his being that i have nothing left and i am all his.

So that is what im going to strive for as he is my soul, my being. i want to see him transforming me by his love so that i have no fear in me and that i am wrecked by his presence

For it has come for the time to lie down and let God be God.